Stop Living There

Okay, it feels just so weird to see everything changing around in my life. Literally everything around me is changing....
Be it work, friends, flatmate, relationships, everything, literally everything...

And seeing that makes the inner me a bit shaken and weird. All the changes that happened and that too within a month...
At times feels like, wow, that was fast!

And it was yesterday night my flatmate vacated and shifted back to his hometown, and although I knew about that for a while now and we were already looking for a flatmate for me, and I didn't realised that, seeing his empty room will hit me this hard. For real, every time I cross the passage, it just makes me feel weird. And to cope, I just started to play some songs, and ended up on Instagram.

And there I had a reel sent from a close college friend of mine. And the reel was about not looking back and glorifying the old happy days and rather to look forward to things. And I don't know whether she sent me this very intentionally(found that and sent) or it just so accidentally happen to pop on her feed and remember about me.

Whatever the case might be. I felt it was a bit too much. Actually needed that refresher. Because honestly, I use to be that kind of person who use to glorify the past. Thinking about how good life was back in the days. And so were the college days. Remembering all the happy memories. Telling and hearing the same story over and over again with the same set of people. Seeing and showing pictures to others as well, about how things were back then.

And no matter how much good it feels to live in the past, but I am sorry to break it to you, that won't come again. You can try to re-create those memories, but that won't be the same.

And this is coming from a person who had spent years living that life. Fantasising about the past and hoping things will get better and all.
And at the end, you only get hurt!!!

There is literally no point in that...

Sadly, it's the past, my friends.

So just get your shit together and start living the reality.

There are times when we are just literally carrying dead weight. Dead weights of hope and expectations from the past, thinking we might hurt others, but at what cost?

No one is going to come save you from your troubles, and when you are sinking in due to that dead weight, because that's invisible. Not just to others but to yourself as well...

So stop pitying yourself and living in the past and start living in the present.

"Change is the only constant in life"

That is something which we have heard a lot, but never took it seriously.

And well, I guess it's time to take that seriously.

And oh yes, don't pick up your phone while in you are in your focus work and absoulutely don't open Instagram even by accident. All your ideas and flow will just flush down the drain.
Cause that's what happened, and thus I'm now ending this blog.

Until next time!